Dear Single Mom Diary, There are moments throughout the day when I just want to break down in tears. There are moments when I am alone, that I actually do just break down in tears. Being a single mom is hard enough, and I love every challenge that comes at me. I take it with pride for me and my child, I love my title as mom. But, I have to admit that sometimes it gets hard, really hard, being a single mom. To let you in just a little but, today I did break down and cry. I didn’t just cry I was floating in my own tears. They came pouring down like no other, I could not explain it. For a brief moment I felt as though I was a failure. Like, I have gotten our lives nowhere. It is almost as though every path I turn, even if I believe it is the best can going to make things better; I get hit by a big brick wall. Or, in other words I hit it. For this is the reason I cry, I feel helpless. Barley enough air for me to breathe to get by, and I do not know what to do. I tell you one thing, by my surprise, not being a very religious person; I sat and prayed today. That’s how desperate I am to change my situation, to better my child’s life. I’ve more than exceeded all my other options, that to pray was the only thing I had left to make me feel better. If you know me, you know this is a pure desperate measure. But, as a single mom with no other options, I wasn’t sure what to do. So, I prayed. On top of that, though I have my son, I am lonely. I am lonely because I am filled with sorrows; in which I cannot share with my child. There are plenty of reasons a single mom could find themselves lonely, yet this is mine. I have thoughts in my head, I have no one I could share them with, other than this keyboard. There is nothing left for me to do other than drowned myself in my own tears, because there is no one. It is definitely not easy being a single mom, and I am almost positive I am not the only one in which cries when she is alone, lost, helpless, and with an ounce of loneliness in her life. But, there is one thing that keeps me going on the straight and narrow, and brings loads of joy to my heart, and that is my child. He is the reason behind my single mom strength, and determination. When life gets hard, much like today, I simple turn to him to wash the tears away, and for that hidden smile. Thank you Dear Single Mom Diary for listening to me cry! You seem as though you’re all I have from time to time. From your favorite single mom!